Gahhhh. Stop being annoying already. Im getting real tired of this back and forth shit. And don’t give me some excuse. Make a decision or I’m making it for you
Have a conversation with my mom about how I haven’t heard from you pretty much since I left… Get woken up at 1am cause you decided to text me. Da fuck?
I don’t know what I find more confusing. The fact That my ex claimed he really wanted to be friends but is making no effort whatsoever… Or that my other ex and I are becoming friends again, so much so that we added each other back on Facebook and spent a half hour on the phone just talking. Weird.
give me strength…im about to do something i really never thought i would…but i think i am finally ready.
I still miss you. I still can’t stop thinking about you. I thought it would be easier being home and away from you… But the reality is… It doesn’t feel right not having you in my life. Why can’t I just forget you and move on? Why can’t I stop wishing you would tell me you miss me. It sucks to miss you and feel like you’ve forgotten me
So I post to tumblr instead of texting you cause I know that if I text you and don’t get a response it will only upset me more
I miss you so much and you have no idea because I’m afraid if I tell you that you won’t care. I’m afraid you don’t miss me or think about me at all. All the while I sit here every night on the verge of tears wishing I still had you. I wish things were different. I wish I didn’t have to feel this pain any more
I’m feeling so exhausted. Mentally, physically, emotionally. I’m so drained from everything lately.
I think I want to get my belly button pierced. I also want to get my tattoo. But I’m deathly afraid of both. I’m such a wimp when it comes to pain. I just wish they could like… Put me under anesthesia and then do both while I’m knocked out so I dont have to feel the pain.
